Hating someone who used to be special, with the very same heart , that once loved them passionately is like dying a hundred deaths…..
Three weeks later.
Only I knew how I had survived these three weeks. Being away from Naira,was the hardest thing to do, and this time, it was even harder. She hadn’t called or even messaged, which wasn’t really surprising. I gave her no reason to call.
We had got the contract like a boss, and were heading back home. I was glad that I didn’t let anything affect the deal. I celebrated for my professional life and cried like a baby over my personal life.
First few days of the trip were rough. I missed Naira like hell. I was lost, but then I somehow convinced myself. And now finally I was getting to see her again after such a long time.
I knew she would be angry. She would yell at me for walking out on her, she would hate me for sometime, but in the end, It would all be worth it. Because I knew she cared.
I decided to call her.
I was probably getting my hopes high, thinking that she would actually answer my call, but to my surprise she didn’t.No doubt, she had still not forgiven me.
So instead of calling back, I decided to leave her a voice Message !!
“Hey, hi it’s me. Look I know you probably don’t even want to talk to me, but I just have to talk to you. It’s kinda bugging me all the time, that you haven’t called or whatever.I don’t even expect you to after what I did. But I just wanted to say I’m really sorry for not being there for you, and I mean it. What else can I say ?!! I guess. call me back, when you get this message, okay ?!! I’ll be waiting. Bye.”
I closed my eyes, and soon, drifted off to sleep…..
Its him. I looked at the screen as Karthik’s name popped up on it.
‘Pick up.Answer it.’ Said my heart.
‘Dont pick up. Let it ring.’ Said my mind.
I was torn between these two options. As much as I hated to keep him waiting, I also didn’t want to talk to him. It had been almost three weeks and I knew, he was back. But I guess, I just didn’t want to face him yet.
Soon, the phone stopped ringing. I was a bit relieved, but then, another notification popped up on the screen.
‘You have a voice message.’ It said.
Oh great. . .
I knew it was him. I wasn’t ready to talk to him yet, but was I ready to even listen to his voice ?!! I guess I was not, but I was dying to listen to him. . .
I heard it. I heard everything he said in the voice message and that only brought back tears into my eyes. I missed him too much, and listening to his voice after three weeks made it only worse.
I had successfully managed to be happy or at least I tried to be. I started hanging out with Rithvik a lot. He made me happy, and to be honest, I kinda started liking him too,but nothing more than a ‘friend.’
“Don’t cry. Don’t be weak. Be strong.” I said to myself, and wiped off the little tears from my face. His absence didn’t matter to me in these three weeks, so his presence should not matter to me too.
I wanted to make a final decision. I wanted to end it once and for all. I decided to call him.
“Hey.” Karthik spoke from the other end of the line, and I could picture him smiling right then.
Be strong. Say it. Put an end to this.
“We need to talk. Now.” I said coldly.
“Yes, we do. Go on, what is it ?!!” He asked.
“Not like this. Can we meet up somewhere ?!!” I asked.
“Alright. I’ll pick you up in the evening.” He said. I wanted to say okay, but I didn’t do so. I didnt want him to think that I’m still weak and dependent on him.
“No thanks. I can come on my own. Meet me at Lakeside park.” I said and hung up immediately.
‘That went well.’ I thought and hoped it would go the same way in the evening. I sighed and rested my head on the headrest, and took a look at the small box lying on the nightstand.
I grabbed it, and pulled out a cigarette. Lighting it up, I felt so good and relaxed.like there were no worries in my life. No problems,just a happy and good life.
But what’s the point anyway ?!! The feeling lasted as long as the cigarette did, and I was dragged back to reality.
Precap : The meet at the lakeside park. Karthik meeting the changed Naira for the first time. Karthik apologizing. Another shock !!
Thank you for all your comments on the previous Chapter. Seeing the decreasing number of comments I had a feeling that people didn’t like my ff. But then I read all your comments and my mood got better. I couldnt reply to all of you as I am busy in Uttarayan preparations ( Makar Sankranti) but will reply to each of yout comments by night !!
Thanks again to all of you for your love and support. As far as the end of this ff is concerned, I have not written it yet. I have a plot in my mind and only the writting is remaining. So I don’t know the Chapter number at which it will end but only a few more chapters to go, that’s for sure.
Happy Birthday Yrkkh. Love you all.
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