Not pretending to care about someone requires more strength then pretending to care !!
I couldn’t believe that he was leaving. He was leaving and he cared to tell me now ?!! Why was I so upset and angry and frustrated ?!! Just because he was leaving ?!! I don’t think that was it.
Everything was so complicated in my life. I didn’t remember a thing from my past, and when Karthik said he’d be here and help me out, I got a ray of hope. I knew I wasn’t alone. But now he was leaving.
I barged into my room and slammed the door shut. I was angry would be an understatement because I was practically fuming from inside. Physically, I felt like I could demolish a whole tank. But mentally, I was drained. I had no energy to deal with things anymore.
That night, I screamed, I cried, I threw things, and even broke some of them. But in the end, it all failed to calm me down.
Dry eyes, with absolutely no tears, no fear and no feelings, I sat in the window, all night long. The sun was rising on the horizon, but it was still all dark in my life. To sum up my life in short – it was miserable. Because nobody understood me and my feelings. Not even him.
I thought about him. He must be leaving. Or maybe he has already left. It didn’t matter, how much I tried, all I thought about the whole night was Karthik. He wasn’t there when I needed him the most.
I was completely torn between being with the person I love, and chasing my father’s dream and making him proud.
She, who once encouraged me to follow my dreams, was now holding me back.
I didn’t even realize that Naksh was sitting beside me all this time. He had helped me pack my stuff.
“You okay, Karthik ?!!” He asked.
I just nodded. To be honest, I was quite frustrated with whatever shit that was happening in my life, at the moment. I wanted to break anyone, who tried to talk to me, but I didn’t have the strength to do so. I was tired of everything.
“Look, I don’t think, I need to say this again, but please, just take care of yourself. This is a big deal for your company and everyone has big hopes from you. Don’t let them and your father down.” Naksh said. I smiled, thanking him for being such a good friend.
“I won’t. Dad’s dream has always been my dream. And I would never leave it for anything or anyone.” I said.
He nodded. “Are you upset with Naira ?!! Because if you are, I think you should think from her point of view as well. I mean, she’s going through so much, and you promised her you’d be there for her. Maybe you leaving suddenly, is disturbing her.”
“I know and I accept that it was my fault. I should’ve told her about the trip in advance, but I don’t know how it just slipped from my mind. And I’m not upset with her. I’m just worried about her. I don’t want her to do anything reckless, while I’m away.” I said.
“She won’t do that and she’s not alone. We all are there for her. Most importantly, you are there for her. I’m sure she’ll forgive you when you come back.” Naksh said.
I sighed. “I hope so. Its funny how life changes. I mean a few weeks ago we were so happy. By this time we should’ve been engaged. But look how everything has turned out to be.”
“Life is like that. Every obstacle is a choice made by God. He chooses the path for us. All we have to do is keep going and never lose hope. Because if we are strong enough, we can change our destiny.” He said.
I could really change my destiny and I will change it. For her. For us.
Screw everything. Screw my life. I stood amidst the broken glass pieces, scattered sheets of paper, clothes, albums and God knows what all crap.
I had decided that I wasn’t going to cry over him. He, who’s responsible for all this. He, who made a promise and broke it. He, who gave me false hopes.
But not anymore. ‘Its over !!’ I thought, as my eyes fell on an old photograph. I could see myself in it, along with someone else. It was Karthik.
I picked up the photograph, which looked like it was clicked long back. It was him kissing my cheek, in the photograph.
Sadly, I didn’t remember anything about that day. But in a way, now, I was glad that I didn’t remember anything. It would’ve only brought back more tears.
“No more tears. No more wasting time on somebody, who doesn’t care. You’re alone and happy.” I said to myself and tore the photograph into pieces.
Half of the day I had spent in collecting all the old photographs of us, diaries and what all stuff. I just dumped them in a bag without even giving them a second look and carried them out of house, where they belonged.
Dumping ground, that’s where I stood with a bag full of memories. I would be lying if I say that I didnt care. Because I did. A part of me ached to throw these memories away, but in order to move on, I had to do it.
I was walking back home with a heavy heart. As I was almost close to reaching home, I happened to bump into someone. I didn’t really know, who he was, but he knew me very well, I guess.
“Naira !! What a pleasant surprise !!” He exclaimed. He was medium height, well built, and quite good-looking. I wondered whether I had seen him somewhere, but I hadn’t.
“I’m sorry, do I know you ?!!” I asked, trying not to be rude.
He suddenly seemed to realize something as his mouth formed an O shape.
“Oh !! I’m sorry.I’m Rithvik.” He said, extending his hand.
“I still don’t remember. Anyways nice to meet you.” I said.
“Don’t be so formal yaar. I know what happened and I’m really sorry about it. I wish I was here to help you out at that time.” He said.
“Don’t be sorry. It had to happen.” I said.
He nodded. “If you need help with anything, feel free to ask me, alright ?!!”
I smiled. He seemed to be quite genuine.
“Thanks. But I don’t think I need help. I’m good.” I said.
He seemed to process something in his mind for a moment and then finally spoke up.
“I get it. Why would you want help from me when you’ve Karthik. It’s okay. I understand. I’m glad he’s there though.” he said.
And that’s when it all came back, he mentioned Karthik and it was enough to take me back to the depressing reality.
“Since you know him, I’m quite surprised you didn’t know the fact that we kinda broke up.” I said, uncomfortably.
Rithvik on the other side, didnt look shocked. Like, he looked,happy, I guess. But anyway, what is it to me ?!!
“Why would you break up ?!! Did he cheat on you or something ?!!” He asked.
“What ?!! No, ofcourse not !! He didn’t. He made a promise and broke it. I can’t really be with someone who doesn’t stick to his words.” I said and I had no clue why the hell was I sharing my life’s problems with this Rithvik guy. I barely knew him !!
He seemed to understand whatever I said, though.
“I’m sorry for everything, Naira. I can see that you’re not happy. I mean, I should’ve met you way back and told you everything, but I was busy with work and stuff !! ” He said hesitating a bit.
What does he mean by ‘tell me everything ?!!’. What secrets did my past life have ?!!
“I’m sorry, what ?!!” I asked, asking him to enlighten me. He looked at me for a moment, and finally spoke up.
“Naira, before your accident, around two years ago, we were dating.” He said.
Okay, I guess, that isn’t much shocking.
“I know it’s kinda awkward right now, but that’s the truth. Yes, you and Karthik were childhood sweethearts and you were close enough. But when you left him three years back, you came to London. That’s where we met and gradually started dating.” He proceeded.
I guess I needed to know about this ‘leaving Karthik and dating Rithvik’ part as well. Why wouldn’t Karthik or anybody tell me about it ?!!
“But when we both came to India, he came back into your life. I tried to keep him away from you, because I knew, he didn’t love you, but he had his hooks so deep in you, that I just failed. You ended up with him instead of me. But all I wanted to say is that he didn’t love you. He still doesn’t. I pretended to be happy about your engagement, only because I thought you were happy with him. You needed to know I guess. I mean, he has like even cheated on you before.” Rithvik added.
Wait, what ?!!
I was shocked. Nobody told me about this. Not Karthik,not anybody else. At least my family should’ve told me about this, but I heard it from a stranger who was probably my ex-boyfriend.
“He cheated ?!! I don’t believe that.” I said. I guess I didn’t believe that 99%, but there’s always a 1% doubt.
The way Karthik looked at me every time, the way he said he loved me,it wasn’t fake. He may have broken his promise, but I didn’t think that his love was so fake and false.
“You never did. And I guess that’s why you guys were together for so long. But he was never loyal.” He said.
I couldn’t believe what I had just heard. I had no reason for not believing Rithvik. Why would he lie to me ?!! What would he get from that ?!!
What was done, was done for me. The Karthik Goenka chapter was over forever. I had to find happiness, I had to move on.
Rithvik was still looking at me, like he was waiting for me to say something. And that’s when I had made my choice.
“Would you like to join me for a coffee ?!!” I asked, covering up everything with a smile. He smiled back, and nodded as we walked to a nearby coffee shop.
Precap : Three weeks later. Karthik returning to India. Karthik calling Naira. A changed Naira !!
So Rithvik is messing with Naira’s brain and speaking all the lies a person is allowed to speak. The story is moving towards its final stage !!
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