I fell in love, the way you fall asleep….
Slowly and then all at once !!
Everyone was moving on in life, trying to take out time for family as well as work. Everyone was busy with their own thing and here I was, trying to put my life back together. Trying to remember things.
I didn’t see or meet Karthik since that night which was three days ago. It looked like he just,disappeared. He said he would stay away from me if I say so. But I don’t think I said anything like that. Did I want him to stay away ?!!
Accept it or not, I was pretty sure that we did have something before. That night everybody at the party seemed familiar to me, but him, I felt like I had a deep connection with him. It was pretty hard to digest the fact that we were almost engaged but somewhere I was glad, I came to know about it.
Currently I sat in my room with a bunch of papers scattered on my desk. I kept playing with my table lamp, switching it on and off continuously. The rest of the room was dark and it was raining outside.
As I sat there staring into the dark and playing with the light switch, a sudden thought popped into my mind. ‘Call me whenever you need anything.’ He’d said.
Yes, I was thinking about Karthik and what he had said the other night. ‘Maybe he can help me out of this ?!!’ I thought.
I grabbed my phone from the desk. The phone which I had hardly used since the accident. I unlocked it and went straightway to contact list. I typed Karthik and his name flashed on the screen. I had saved it as ‘Heartbeat (Karthik)’
‘Heartbeat ?!!’ ‘
I loved him so much ?!!’ I wondered. But I was also a bit relieved I had his number. I pressed the contact number with trembling hands. I didn’t know whether this was the right thing to do or not, but I had to talk to him in order to feel better.
To my surprise, he picked up at the third ring itself. “Hello ?!!” I heard his voice and froze.
What to say now ?!! What is he going to think about me if I ask him about coming over ?!!
“Hello ?!! Naira ?!! Are you there?!!” He asked me, snapping me out of my thoughts.
“hi.” I said in the smallest voice possible.
“Hi.Is everything okay ?!!” He asked.
“Oh yeah,everything’s cool” I said, nervously.
There was a long pause. Did he hang up ?!!
He laughed a little. “Okay okay. What do you want ?!!” He asked. He knew me so well.
I sighed. “Well I was just trying to figure out everything, you know ?!! But unfortunately I don’t remember anything. So I thought maybe you could help ?!!”
“Maybe ?!! Ofcourse I’ll help. Don’t worry. I’ll come over in around twenty minutes.” He said as shuffling was heard behind.
“It’s pouring outside. Don’t drive now,it’s dangerous.” I said.
“Don’t worry about that. I’m used to it. I’ll be there, okay. Bye.” He said and hung up.
Phew !! I sighed, knowing that it was over and hated myself for being so stupid in front of him.
Not more than twenty minutes had passed and the doorbell rang. I opened the door only to see Karthik a little drenched.
“I told you not to drive in the storm. Come in !!” I said leading him inside.
Knowing that he would be cold, because of driving all the way to my house, I had already prepared hot Tea for him. That was the least I could do for him.
“Drink it. Or else you are gonna catch cold.” I said handing him the cup.
He gave me a blank look for a second or so and gladly took it.
As we sat down, I can’t explain what I felt at that moment. There was silence. Nobody spoke, but that silence was comforting as well as awkward. I know I sound pathetic but that’s how I felt.!!
“So what do you want to know ?!!” He asked breaking the ice between us.
“Everything. Like what did I do ?!! What were my likes and dislikes ?!! “I said. He nodded understanding.
“well you liked listening to music and Dancing. I still remember when we were going shopping and there was a traffic jam on the road because of a Barrat. You had gotten out of car and started dancing with the baratis as well !!” He said and laughed at the last part.
Did I really do that ?!! I also laughed along, as I got more comfortable. When he told about that day, I felt like I wanted to know more. I wanted to know more about us, I guess.
“I’m sure it must have been a funny day. What else did we do ?!!” I asked. He smiled like he had been expecting me to ask that question since forever.
“A lot of things !! It’s hard to remember one day with you which wasn’t eventful. Once we had gone to see this action flick, and during the climax when the hero started beating up the bad guy. You got up from your seat and started whistling. It was so embarassing as well as hilarious.” He said as if remembering a very forlon memory !!
He told me alot about the funny and embarrassing moment we had. I almost died laughing when he explained me everything.
Soon the laughter died down and slowly I felt tears forming in my eyes. I wish I could remember everything. I wish I knew about my old life, about every person in my life. Not wanting to be noticed, I wiped the tears with my sleeve, before they could fall down. But unfortunately I was noticed, and in the next moment, Karthik was sitting beside me.
I don’t know what got into me but I just wanted to be held. I wanted someone to tell that it’s all going to be okay and then, as if God had heard my prayers, I felt two strong arms wrapping me in a warm and comfortable hug.
“Hey,it’s okay, babe. Dont cry. Everything’s gonna be okay. I promise.” He said rocking me back and forth.
“I feel so alone. Like you remember everything we did, everywhere we went, but when I try to remember.It’s all gone !! There’s nothing.” I said holding onto him tighter. I felt so safe and protected. Like this was where I belonged.
“I know, jaan. But I also know you’re strong. You’re my brave girl, alright. And you’re gonna fight through this. And remember one thing,you’re not alone. Even if I’m not with you, I’ll always be by your side. No matter what !!” He said. His words just melted my heart instantly.
How can somebody love someone so much ?!! Specially when they know they’re forgotten !!
I nodded and cried into his chest for the next few minutes. I felt good to be in his arms, but I also felt bad for him. I knew the smile he had put on was just a show off. I knew he wasn’t happy with the way things were turning out to be. He was sad and the reason behind his sadness was ME.
I slowly, let him go, breaking the hug.
“Don’t cry babe.Be strong. I know you and I do have faith in you. This is just a bad patch in our lives,you know like these dark rainy days. But soon it’s gonna fade away. There will be light and we are gonna find a way through dark. All we have to do, is not lose hope.” He said wiping my face. I muttered a thank you and he smiled in return.
Being with him, laughing, having fun even on this dark and depressing rainy day, I felt alive. I felt like this life, which I was living, was one more chance I had gotten. One more opportunity which knocked my door. What mattered was the present, and in this present, I knew I was getting attracted towards him.
After the laughter died down.There was only sound of wind and rain pouring outside. I looked at him only to realize that he was already looking at me.
I don’t know what got over me, and my hand automatically made it’s way towards his hand. He locked his fingers with mine and I was moving closer towards him. I could feel fireworks going on around me. I was robbed out of sound and sight. All I could hear was my heart beating like a drum and all I could see was Karthik. His beautiful eyes locked with mine, making me numb. I couldn’t move, I couldn’t speak and this feeling it was familiar !!
He broke his gaze and looked away. I inched a little closer to him and smashed my lips on his. He didn’t hesitate and kissed me back. I didn’t want to forget this one thing..this one person..Karthik !!
I got goosebumps as he parted away. He looked back at me, his eyes not leaving me for a moment and said,
“I love you..”
I didn’t know what to say ?!! Do I love him ?!! I liked him. I was attracted towards him, but I wasn’t in love with him. I stayed quite and waited for him to speak up.
“It’s okay. Take your time.” He said and kissed my forehead. I puked him in for a hug. I don’t know how long we sat there, hugging each other, but it felt good……..
Precap : Karthik having a bad dream about Naira. Calling her to make sure she’s ohkay. Naira getting worried about Karthik !!
So this update had some romance because I am very happy today. After lots of begging with my maa she allowed me to have a pet. So I have adopted this puppy. He is a beagel by breed. He is just a bundle of joy !!
I had love bird at first but then they died after about 5 years and I was very much affected by their death. I had cried for two days without eating anything. Thus my maa was against getting another pet as I get attached to them easily. But finally she was convinced and I brought my baby home !!
He is adjusting to my house right now and I am just so happy watching him jumping all around. So this was my happy walla update. Hope you all liked it. The next Chapter would be a bit of thriller.
Do comment. Keep smiling. Keep watching Yrkkh !!