I couldn’t post it yesterday…So many reader’s note is given in this episode…Hope it is not confusing…Enjoy reading….
Twinkle was surprised to see that all the photographs were of Twinkle.She never knew that Kunj has taken these many photos of her.
Twinkle thinks, âWhen did he click these many pics of mine? Of course, he used to tell that he has a craze of photography and used to click pics. But I thought it was of random thingsâ¦Now I realize it was just meâ¦
Twinkle checks the pics. All of them with her different expressions, either talking to someone, doing work or eatingâ¦Some photos were of Kunj and Twinkle together, which she knew that he clicked. She collects all of them and keeps it in bed. She is looking at the pics and suddenly realizes that there is something written on the back of every photographâ¦
Kunj has noted down the date on which it was taken and the occasion or event which was occurring at that time. With the help of the date, she arranges all the pics and starts reading. First pic was of Twinkle blushing and looking at the ring. Twinkle turns the pic to find what Kunj has written.
âAaj se hamara safar shuru ho reha hainâ¦Aur izz safar ka ek bhi lamhe ko main khona nahi chahtaâ¦Inn tasveeron ke zariye vo har lamha, vo har yaadein jo humne ji hain, hamesha ke liye apne kareeb rekhna chahta hunâ¦â Date
âAnd she said yesâ¦Our journey beginsâ¦I donât want to miss any of the moments which I spend with youâ¦So from now on, I will be capturing all the moments in pics and keeping it with me forever.â Date
Twinkle: Ohhâ¦So he started clicking my pics from the day he proposed meâ¦
Next few photographs were of Twinkle in canteen, either chatting with Sanjay or any team member or some team memberâs bday celebration. Some with Twinkle shopping or selecting clothes at mall. She I finds Kunj has written âGalti se kabhi kabhi do dhari talwaar bhi girly ho jaati hainâ¦âDate.
Twinkle has a smile on her face reading it. Some were of driving classes where Twinkle is learning driving. âMadam irritated with driving lessonsâ¦â Date
One with Twinkle in an angry mode, and the caption was âTeacher Sadu Sarna se pareshanâ¦Sherni ka driving classes chodne ka phaisla â¦tume kya pata meri jaan, tumhare saath do pal bitane ke liye, dost ki gadi udhar me mangke sikha reha hunâ¦â Date
(Sherni about to quit driving classes due to teacher Sadu Sarnaâ¦To spend some time with you, I made this plan of driving classes and that to taking my friendâs car for an hourâ¦Date)
Next photo was of Twinkle looking at Kunj innocently and she is in the driving seat.
Twinkle: Aahhâ¦This I know.. It was taken when I have just learnt driving and took car and made a traffic jam. He took it saying I want to capture this expression of yoursâ¦
She turns behind to see what Kunj has written.
âKal jo humne vegetable market me traffic jam kiya tah, uss se thoda kam hain aaj ka jamâ¦Improve ho rehi hun meâ¦Dateâ
âOhhâ¦Such an innocent face which says last time I made a bigger traffic jam at vegetable market than thisâ¦this is quite small and acceptable oneâ¦Dateâ
A pic of Twinkle blushing in a beautiful dress had a caption of âGood job, Yuvi..I donno how you predicted that she is gonna be your bhabhiâ¦Dateâ
Twinkle looked at every picture and the caption written on back.. She was reliving their love life through those photographs. She was so touched by Kunjâs gestureâ¦ Donât know why but Twinkle had tears in her eyesâ¦But that was definitely of happiness. Happinessâ¦ that the guy whom she has chosen as her companion is the best. He loves her to that extent that till date he has kept all these memories with him. The way Kunj has preserved each and every moment of Twinkle was melting her heart, her ego and her complainsâ¦
Twinkle took the dairies to read. There were 5 diariesâ¦ 5 years of togethernessâ¦
New companyâ¦new teamâ¦Seems interesting and scary tooâ¦ I hope decsison of joining this company proves to be a right choice for my careerâ¦Happy to see Alisha there..at least one known face is thereâ¦I donât know whyâ¦But one name stuck in my mindâ¦Nakshatra Nambiar…What kind of a name it is…Thank godâ¦ She has a nick name âTwinkleââ¦ It is too difficult to call someone Nak..Nakshatraâ¦ weird name, but catchy one though.
Out of all the 3 team leads, Twinkle seems to be the most difficult one to handleâ¦Kind of roughness, arrogance is thereâ¦The way she stands for her team members is commendableâ¦But it is hard to handle her anger issues and mood swingsâ¦She is not ready to listen itself..I tried to advise her regarding her anger using example of do dhari talwaar..Instead of understanding my point, she convinced me that she is rightâ¦.Aur khushi khushi do dhari talwaar naam accept ker liyaâ¦Sahi naam diya hai maineâ¦Sach me do dhari talwaar hainâ¦(And she accepted the name happilyâ¦I think that name perfectly suits her.)
Phewâ¦Fun Fridayâ¦Normaly that seems to be interestingâ¦But today I had to answer the concept of my life partnerâ¦Weird that Sanjay finds it to be matching with Twinkle..
Reallyâ¦No…She is not of my typeâ¦He thinks I am trying to impress her and I am in love with herâ¦Never ever thought of her like thatâ¦I am impressed with the way she worksâ¦Her professionalism, commitment towards her team, her attitude are commendableâ¦Her ego, attitude and that roughness makes her stand out among the girls in the teamâ¦But that doesnât meanâ¦ I love herâ¦I think I should stay away from herâ¦at least to convince Sanjay..
I canât handle this anymoreâ¦I am trying hard to resist myself from falling for herâ¦ She is impossible to ignore. She has become my center of gravity.I am making stupid reasons to meet her or talk to her..I think Sanjay was rightâ¦I am in love with herâ¦Per kabse..aur kaiseâ¦Ye sab kab hua pata hi nahi chalaâ¦Aisa toh kya hain Twinkle me, jo muje kheech rehi hain uski tarafâ¦ (I donât know from when I have started loving herâ¦And what is that which holds me close to herâ¦)
Twinkle is keenly reading the diary and has forgot the time tooâ¦Clock start ringing (clock which makes specific tone in every hour)and she reazlises that she wonât be able to read all the diaries in a single nightâ¦Moreover she has to keep them back before everyone comes back from movie. She decides to read the last diary. Twinkle wanted to know the feelings of Kunj when he decided to break up their relationship. )
[Readers â English translation of this part is written after ——– line.]Date
Aaj Papa ko ICU se ward me shift kiyaâ¦Thank god he is fineâ¦Vo sabse pehle mujse baat kerna chahte the..vo bhi akeleâ¦Muje pata tha ki Twinkle ke bare me hi baat hogi..Aakhir hamare pyaar ke bare me pata chala tabhi toh unhe heart attack aayaâ¦Muje laga tha ki vo Twinkle ko bhulne ke liye kahenge..Per me galat thaâ¦Unhone aisa kuch bhi nahi kahaâ¦
Aur jo kahaâ¦Vo me zindagi me kabhi bhul nahi saktaâ¦
[For readers, I am keeping this part in Manoharâs voice so that you get the actual feelâ¦ Hope I am able to do thatâ¦]
âTume lagta hain ki tum uske bina nahi jee saktey aur vahi tumhari zindagi ki manzil hainâ¦Hain na? Me samaj chukka hun, ki tume kisi bhi cheez ka vaasta de do, toh bhi tum uss ladki ko chodne vale nahi hoâ¦Pehli baar maine tume, mujse ladtey huye dekha haiâ¦Jo bhi tumne uss din kaha, sab man liyaâ¦Tumhari apni zindagi hain..Aur tume tumhara humsafar chun ne ka pura haq hainâ¦Ab me tume nahi rokhungaâ¦Jo jee me aaye keroâ¦Shadi kerna hai to kero, ya bina shadi ke rehna chahtey ho to vo bhi kerloâ¦
Muje pata hainâ¦ tume aaj itni himmat kaise aayi hainâ¦Yun mujse uss din uchi aawaz me kaise baat kiyaâ¦Tume ye ache se pata hain ki, papa ab budhe ho chuke hainâ¦aur retired bhiâ¦Aur ab me kuch kamata nahi hunâ¦Ye ghar ab tumhare income se chalta hainâ¦Yuvi ki padhai aur bank ke loan abhi baki hainâ¦Mera pension toh sirf ghar chalane ke liye enough hogaâ¦Toh tume ache se pata hain ki tum mere izz majburi ka fayda utha saktey hoâ¦
Tumhare nazar me, mere paas tumhare shadi ko maan ne ke alawa aur koi rasta hi nahi hainâ¦Aakhir yuvi ki padhai, loan aur ghar tumare paisons se jo chalta haiâ¦.Per yeh galat fehmi hain tumhariâ¦Iss kadar majburâ¦ Manohar Sarnaâ¦ na kabhi hua tha aur na hogaâ¦Me itna bhi lachar nahi hua ki apne bete ke saamne jhuk jaunâ¦.Agar tume padha likha ker, iss kabil banana janta hun toh aage bhi kya kerna hain yeh me janta hunâ¦Me job kerne lagungaâ¦Chota mota hi sahi,kahi toh muje job mil jayegiâ¦Kya kereinâ¦Maa baap ko, iss budape me aake naukri kerni padti hain, agar tum jaisa nikamma beta paida ho tohâ¦Jaise taise me Yuvi ki padhai ka kharcha toh nikal hi lungaâ¦Bus bhagwan se yehi prarthana hain ki jab pad likh ke vo bhi kaabil ban jaaye toh baap ko laat na mar de tumhari tarahâ¦ Tume shadi kerni hai na uss ladki seyâ¦beshak kero..Bus ab ghar ki fikar mat keroâ¦.Manohar Sarna abhi zinda hainâ¦â
[Back to Kunjâs voice]Sach kehtey hain log ki words are sharper than a two edged swordâ¦Agar papa muje chaaku se mar detey toh itna gam nahi hota, jitna muje aaj hua hainâ¦Vo mere bare me yeh sochtey hainâ¦Ki me unke majburi ka fayda uthaungaâ¦Manta hun maine unse jagda kiya..Per vo isliye ki me uss kadar Twinkle se pyaar kerta hunâ¦Aur bohut ache se janta hun ki usske bina me jee nahi saktaâ¦Aur muje laga tha ki, Papa mere feelings ko samjengeâ¦ bhale, pehle thoda mujse jagda kerleâ¦Isliye nahi ki papa ka financial condition ka fayda utha ke unse apni baat manva sakunâ¦
Aapko sach me aisa lagta hain ki me aapki majboori ka fayda utaunga? To mera bhi yeh vaada hain Papa, ki me tab tak shaadi nahi kerunga, jab tak Yuvi ki padhai aur aapke loans chukka na dunâ¦Jab tak ki Yuvi ko iss kaabil na bana dun, ki aapko meri zaroorat na padheyâ¦Ek baar Yuvi ghar ki zimmedhariyan uthane ki kaabil ho jaaye, toh me chup chap yahaan se chala jaungaâ¦Aapko mere paison ki zaroorat hain naâ¦ Toh aaj..iss waqt se me bus aapke liye ek paisa kamane ka machine ban reha hunâ¦Vaise bhi Twinkle meri zindagi hainâ¦Aur uske bina, me sirf saas leta hua ek ATM machine ban jaungaâ¦ Itney saal aapka dulara beta kehtey rehe aur ek jhatke me yeh keh diya ki me nikamma hunâ¦Aapko sirf paise se matlab hain na mereâ¦To vahi sahiâ¦ Aaj se aap ka beta, Kunj Sarna mar chukkaâ¦Ab bas zinda hain toh ek machine jo sirf paisey kamata hainâ¦
If you remember, I have mentioned in episode 2 that after Manoharâs denial, Kunj never came back to Amritsar and just used to send money in accountâ¦]————————————————————————————————————————————–
Today Papa got shifted from ICU to normal wardâ¦Thank godâ¦He is fine and at a stable stage nowâ¦He wanted to talk to me first personallyâ¦I was sure that it must be related to Twinkle. Of course, it has to beâ¦Coz the last talk we had with each other before his attack was about my relation with her. I thought he will ask me to forget Twinkleâ¦.Butâ¦I was wrongâ¦Whatever he said just blew my mindâ¦I never expected something like thisâ¦
[For readers, I am keeping this part in Manoharâs voice so that you get the actual feelâ¦ Hope I am able to do thatâ¦]
âYou think you canât live without that girlâ¦Right? And she is the ultimate destiny of your lifeâ¦Fineâ¦I have understood that I canât persuade you from that relationship. At any cost, you are going to get married to herâ¦For the first time in my life, I have seen you fighting with me for that girlâ¦Whatever you said that day while arguing is all true..It is your life and you have all the rights to choose your partner. Nowâ¦I wonât stop youâ¦Do whatever you feel likeâ¦You wanna get married..go aheadâ¦Or you want to stay with her without marriage, that is also fineâ¦
I know now you have grown up and you are capable of arguing with meâ¦I know what is giving you confidence to argue with me and go against my decision. Now I am old and retired too. You very well know that I am not earning anymoreâ¦You are the one who is financially supporting the house. Yuviâs education is not yet complete and bank loans are also thereâ¦My pension money is barely enough to support the household. So you have decided to take advantage of my conditionâ¦
You think that I donât have any other options other than saying yes to your marriage, because I am financially in a crisis and you are the only one to support meâ¦But you are getting it wrongâ¦Manohar Sarna wonât get into your trapâ¦I wonât let that happenâ¦Kunjâ¦I have worked so hard and invested all my money in giving you education..If I could do that much, I can handle this situation tooâ¦I will go and find a jobâ¦Of course I am old now and wonât get a good job at this ageâ¦Somehow I will manage Yuviâs education expensesâ¦People will start talking about itâ¦But what to do? When you have such useless son, you will have to work hard even in your old ageâ¦ I hope Yuvi at least, doesnât do the same with me after his education is overâ¦You want to get married to her, Right? Go aheadâ¦Donât worry about the family. Manohar Sarna is alive and I know how to support my familyâ¦You donât have to worry about it anymoreâ¦â
[Back to Kunjâs voice]I have heard it somewhere that words are sharper than a two edged swordâ¦Today I experienced itâ¦ It would have been better, if Papa had hurt me with me a knifeâ¦His words are 1000 times more painful than cut from knife. This is what he thinks of meâ¦I canât believe itâ¦I agree, I fought with him that day and argued terriblyâ¦But the reason was I love her to that core and I canât imagine a life without herâ¦I felt Papa wonât agree first and after a few arguments he will realize my feelings for her and say yes to our relationshipâ¦I was not arguing with him coz I am the one who financially supports him.
Papa, you really think soâ¦You believe that I will take advantage of your helplessness..Then I promise youâ¦I will never get married to Twinkle unless and untill Yuviâs education is over and your loans are paid offâ¦ I will be with you and will support you till the date Yuvi is capable of taking responsibilitiesâ¦Once Yuvi is ready to support the family, I will leave you all and go from here. You only need my moneyâ¦So from today, from this very momentâ¦I am just being a machine to earn money for this family.Anyways without Twinkle, I canât have a lifeâ¦I will be like an ATM machine which respiresâ¦Thatâs itâ¦You always told me that you are proud of meâ¦Just because I am in love with a girl whom you donât likeâ¦You termed me as useless son..I have understood that you just need money from me to support youâ¦So here ends the life of your son, Kunj Sarnaâ¦.Now I will be just a machine earning moneyâ¦
[Readers, If you remember I have mentioned in episode 2 that after Manoharâs denial, Kunj never came back to Amritsar and just used to send money in accountâ¦]
Precap – Twinkle reading Kunj’s diary
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