OmgI am very happy for the response I got on my first partâ¦â¦. Thanks a ton and keep supporting me always and keep commenting to encourage meâ¦â¦. May be after this episode I will come back after 20 days as I am going on a tour to uttrakhand and uttar Pradeshâ¦sorry in advanceâ¦â¦ but I will try to post 1-2 part in between
link of previous part : Episode 1
So lets get started with a new episode..
The story of broken trust and lost love : raglak and ragsan episode 2
Ya u all were right it was lakshyaâs requestâ¦â¦.
Omg the great Lakshya somaniâs requestâ¦â¦attitude guyâ¦.. he sent me request how could I believeâ¦â¦ oh god I am dancingâ¦â¦dancing like a maniac, I donât know why but it feels good when somebody whom we have had feelings proves you that we exist for themâ¦â¦ though I donât accept the fact that I feel for him can not suppress the happiness that I am having now.
No waitâ¦.. why am I so happyâ¦.. he is a boyâ¦.. and these people are not trustableâ¦.. I should just delete his request and block himâ¦.. donât know what his intentions areâ¦â¦what he is up to.
I donât know why but I could not resist and I accepted his requestâ¦..
This was the first time I went against my mindâ¦â¦ but my heart do feel a nervousness about its consequences. Nobody knows what will I face in my life because of him.
It may be because a ray of hope fell on me that yes I could be in love againâ¦â¦
LOVE what the f*** it is a crapâ¦â¦ how could you raguâ¦â¦
Ya I could not fall in love againâ¦.. these relationships and all are just a name sakeâ¦â¦
I was then thinking about my flashback with sanskarâ¦â¦..
Yeah yeah I am in loveâ¦â¦. I was dancing like a maniacâ¦.. today he proposed meâ¦.. my sanky proposed meâ¦â¦. Omgâ¦.. he is so courageous I didnât knowâ¦â¦ he proposed me in front of my gang of 18 and many more outsiders who could not help but to peep inside the circle out of their curiosityâ¦â¦
Thinking about how he went on his knees and gave me a rose made me blushed more and moreâ¦..
I remember we met for the first time 2 months ago on a road accidentâ¦.. I blurted and shouted on him, though I realized lately that the person I was shouting on is so damn hotâ¦..
Though our first meeting was a drastic incident but gradually with the passage of time I realized my love.
While thinking all about my first love sleep conquered meâ¦â¦
It was morning and today I have to go on a lunch date with sankyâ¦.. no my sankyâ¦â¦ oh how exited I am
I chosed a high waist jeans and a grey crop top with open hairâ¦.. I have a good quality of hairs and for this award goes to my mother.. she champi my hairs on every alternate daysâ¦.. ugh the smell of that oil isnât bearable though.
I did a light make up with a cherry red lipstick on my lips and smokey hot eyesâ¦.. with black high heels
Coz its was my first date I was a bit nervous â¦â¦ m a sort of introvert girl therefore I was feeling shy as wellâ¦. I am not experienced in this fieldâ¦.. and to increase my tension my gang was thereâ¦.. we are the best gang of our school though we have had some loop holesâ¦. But among my gang only two were my best friends sapnu and sidâ¦.. though these two mad people are not talking to me as for the fact they had two reasonsâ¦ first I didnât told them about my feelings before sanskar proposed meâ¦ yes here they had a reason, being a bestie I should have told them about this but I had a valid reason to nullify this is the second reason that they donât like sanky babyâ¦â¦ well
My thoughts were broken by his callâ¦..
Sanky: where are you babyâ¦..
Me: just coming 15 minutesâ¦..
Sanky: okay janu waitingâ¦.. muahhh.
And I was hell nervous when I reached thereâ¦â¦ my heart was pondering so hard, it was all ready to explode.
We were in a private garden which was fully decorated just for meâ¦â¦ ah this feeling âof just for meââ¦.
There he was with black shirt and grey brijishâ¦â¦ with sunglassesâ¦.. omg looking damn hotâ¦.. his nose is his best partâ¦.. I could take off my eyes from him but I had to because he caught me when I was staring him so deeply.He smiled while I blushedâ¦. Ugh why did I do that?????
Next We chattedâ¦.. we had our lunch and then we just stand to go and there my foot slipped and I fell backwards.
I closed my eyesâ¦.. I was so nervous thinking that what will he think about me that I could not even walk properlyâ¦â¦. But I was surprised that why didnât I reached the ground and then I felt two muscular hands around my waist holding me tightlyâ¦..
Awww the perfect momentâ¦â¦ yes heâ¦. my sanky saved meâ¦â¦. We had a very deep eyelock
And then I donât know why why I hugged him, it seemed that I could not abide the fact that we were so close just some mm awayâ¦â¦ and he hugged me back within a secondâ¦â¦ more and more tighterâ¦â¦.. we could feel each others heart beat. I am telling you my heart would have exploded there itself.
I broke the hug as I felt shy thinking about my actionâ¦â¦ but he grabbed my waist and pulled me towards himâ¦â¦ then I saw him staring at meâ¦â¦ I was so so much blushing and his touch made butterflies scroll in my stomachâ¦.. he cupped my face n came closer more closerâ¦â¦ a bit more towards my lipsâ¦.. I didnât resisted but I was nervous// my lips were shiveringâ¦. I closed my eyes coz I felt him coming closer..
But then he made me surprised, He kissed me on my forehead.. while I was happy about the fact that he understands me so muchâ¦..
But I felt bad for himâ¦â¦ I donât know why but I got the courage and kissed him there on his lipsâ¦. But I became more nervous and broke it in a second and tried to goâ¦â¦
But he held my wristâ¦. And pulled me towards himselfâ¦â¦. I bumped into his chestâ¦â¦ he chuckled as he stroked my cheeks and made me look into his eyesâ¦..his eyes bore into mineâ¦â¦ I was sensing he was coming more closerâ¦.. we closed our eyesâ¦.. firework seemed to explode
Then our lips metâ¦â¦ we had a liplock which was slow initially but became passionate with the passage of timeâ¦â¦. We broke this sucking after 5 minutes not because we were done but the fact was we were out of air now.. I was feeling a bit shy opening my eyesâ¦â¦
I opened my eyes and saw him looking deeply into my eyesâ¦â¦ but I dared to see him and hide myself in his chestâ¦â¦ he smiled at my anticsâ¦. And said I love you baby
After sometime we went back to our destinationsâ¦.. he had to go to his office as he was a intern and I went back homeâ¦
I came to my room and thought about whtever happenedâ¦. I smiled like a maniacâ¦.. it was my first experienceâ¦.. my first dateâ¦.. my first bfâ¦.. and my first hugâ¦â¦ and slept while thinking about himâ¦â¦
Thinking about my first love first bf Iwas cryingâ¦â¦
My mind: Why are you crying suhani u hate that person right
My heart: because first love have a special place in lifeâ¦.. it was the first time I come across this feelingâ¦â¦ this feeling is a sort of remedy to all your problemsâ¦â¦. This is the feeling which makes you understand how you can also love a person who is not your blood relativeâ¦â¦ yes I accept I cannot forget sanskarâ¦.. he will always hold a special part of my heartâ¦â¦ but he can never be forgiven also for what he did to meâ¦..
And see within a second my smile faded and tears are rolling down thinking about himâ¦.. I threw my clock in my frustrationâ¦.. yes I accept I miss himâ¦. My heart is somewhere empty without himâ¦.
A peep sound broke my frustration.
There I saw an unread messageâ¦.. I opened itâ¦â¦ yes it was lakshya somaniâs messageâ¦
Me: hi [ though initially I didnât want to reply but he was my classmate so I need to]Laksh: why are you ignoring me
Me: no its nothing like thatâ¦â¦. Shayad I was a bit busyâ¦.
Laksh: okayâ¦.. and say what are you doing
Me: nothingâ¦.. just solving some maths questionâ¦.
Laksh: acha can I ask you a questionâ¦..
Laksh: do you have a boyfriend??
Me: no I hate relationshipsâ¦â¦.
Laksh: okayâ¦. Same I donât have a gf but unlike u I love relationshipsâ¦.
Me: everbody has their mind set.
Laksh: why are you so stubbornâ¦.. and seriousâ¦. Be fun lovingâ¦â¦ u have so much of attitude
Me: no sorryâ¦.. its nothing like thatâ¦.
Laksh: no its okayâ¦â¦
Me: okay bye
Laksh: okay bye tc gn sd
Our chat endedâ¦â¦. After that day we didnât chated againâ¦â¦. I didnât want to get close to anyoneâ¦. Neither I had trust on anyone nor my heart was free to love because I think I still love sanskar
though i didnt understood what i really want but he always use to sit next to me in maths class for monthsâ¦. I pay no heed to his presence and avoided him as much as I couldâ¦.. I was so confused and messed up with my feelings… whenever I start thinking about laksh, face of sanskar comes with his betrayal.
we didnât interacted muchâ¦â¦ may be he understood that I am ignoring himâ¦â¦
but my bechara sa heart wanted something elseâ¦.. yes I started to feel for him like I used to feel for sanskarâ¦â¦ but I didnât had courage to come uo and accept the fact though I still feel something for sanskarâ¦â¦
the day came when I understood my feelings for him
christmas eve..it was 11:55 i got his message
hy dear happy Christmasâ¦
i was suprised coz as much as i know him he never talked to anyone like this…
i said same to you and we chatted on some various topics like first time I saw him flirting and there came a topic on which something special happenedâ¦â¦. it was like:
laksh: I am a man and a bloke so nobody could reject me.
Me: oh really you and a manâ¦. Hhaa u r boy lakshya
Laksh: donât laugh I hate you.
[Though that I hate you pinched me but I didnât react]Laksh: so go out in this cold whether.
Lakh: as your punishment girl.
Me: huh you go why should i??
[and i was smiling and laughing there on his cute talks in aâ¦â¦.. dark room hiding all my fears
he was making me feel as if i really exist
and he replied just one thing and gave me such a happiness which i could not feel in that past 1and half year]Laksh: chal okay TOGETHER FOREVERâ¦..?? what say
Together FOREVERâ¦â¦. What does he wanted to sayâ¦.
i was sitting there smiling and blushing having goose bumps all over the body…. i felt that as if he would propose me the next very moment….. but suddenly he went offline….
I was sad that he went without bidding me bye
next day he apologised to me for the whole chat because he was drunk and because he have a crush on me and therefore couldnât control and sent these sort of text to me
but it was now clear that he donât love me at least not fo know…
after that 8 months passed we didnât chatted or interacted for a single time….. may be his guilt was not allowing him to make a way through and say a HI to me….. and I was angry on him so I would also not do itâ¦.. though I still feel for him
today I had my competitve exam to enter in CA course…… i came out being happy for i thought i would pass and just thenwe crossed each other….. after so many months he gained up
courage and smiled….. i did the same and we went on searching for our parents who were waiting outside the examination hall
that night he messaged me you forgotten me?? and i replied no no how could I forgot youâ¦.
it was the happiest moment for me literally…. but a sense of insecurity pinched me.
and we chatted till 2 but this time we shared a lot about each other.
we have to end it as I was feeling sleepy
For 2 months we chatted regularly and there came 23 july my result date
It was the night of 22 july
i was feeling nervous so i decided to go online…… and talk to him because I know though I had trust issues he is the only one whom I share everything and feel complete with.
there he was active but i dared to even say a hi may be it was my ego or whatever but the conflict of thoughts between me ended as i heard a pop sound on my phone
yes it was his message with good wishes for me and i also wished him
may be i wanted myself to be his lucky charm…..
the whole night I didnât let him sleep and as a best friend he knew he has to be with me as I was hell nervousâ¦â¦.
The most dreaded day was here our results were declared and yes we both clearedâ¦â¦ he was definitely a bit more intelligent than meâ¦â¦. Uhâ¦.. I am not feeling jealous rather I should be proud of him he was the ranker of my city Mumbaiâ¦â¦
Days rolled by happily as I knew he just have a crush on me so I didnât shared my feelings with him.
May be that was a secondary reasonâ¦â¦ primarily I could not also forget sanskar.
But a ray of hope was always there that may be he will also love me some dayâ¦â¦ and may be I would dissolve sanskarâs every memory then.
Ughâ¦â¦ some day???????? But when
My friends knew about my love interest so they just use to tease me up and as always I use to ignore them while blushing and hiding my smileâ¦â¦ hiding from whom my friends him or myself ? I could not answer this question uptill nowâ¦â¦.
But everything has to get itself changed itâs a rule of natureâ¦â¦
There he met a girl from our classes and made her his best friend I really felt jealous . I could not share him with anyone. I thought him to be just mine but this was not the end and soon their rumors of being in a relationship started to take a roadâ¦â¦ on a road which was made out of sacrifice of my loveâ¦â¦.
I tried to console myself saying its just a rumor man its okay
It was my birthdayâ¦â¦ he offcourse was the first person to wish me as I was his bestie and I felt too happy even though this is a small designation given to me in his life and that was the time I gained courage and asked whats going on are u in a relationship
And he deniedâ¦â¦. I was so happy but soon a thought took over this happiness that may be he is lyingâ¦..
A month passed by and the day which I really wanted to disappear from my memories cameâ¦â¦
He made his relationship public. Ya he was in a relationship.. he lied to me, I thought I was his bestie..
I was shattered I could not take it anymore
I lost my love againâ¦â¦ I cried and cried and cried and I cursed aashi for taking my laksh away from me
But soon I realized was he really my lakshâ¦â¦
Whenever I used to see them with together being happy I wished that I wanted to be that girlâ¦â¦ I could not resist cryingâ¦â¦ but I didnât came in between because I wanted laksh to be happy always. I loved him truly and I wanted him to be happy. I donât have any grudges on him because he never said he loved me.
There was only one question in my mind that even though I came in his life first then why did she took him away from meâ¦â¦..
But I realized that love is not about begging or stealing itâs a feeling
It may remain one sided some times
âIshq saccha vahi jisko milti nahin manzelien
Rang tha noor tha jab karib tu thaâ
I stopped talking to him from that dayâ¦â¦. But I want to keep him with me as a sweet memory.. because I know now I could not love anyone just because my love is my sweet memory now
From last 6 years weâ¦.. laksh and me just have two topics to message either itâs a birthday or any special occasion â¦â¦.
He messaged me many time with intention to talk to me but I couldnât reply because I donât wanna become weak and I donât want to undergo emotional breakdown againâ¦â¦ and again talking to him and killing myself because now there is no hope for me that he may ever love meâ¦..I just want him to be in my memory.. memory which now affect me so much.. these memory help me to overcome the memories of betrayal that sanskar gave me… I wanted to stop myself from thinking about sanskar but off course I couldnât do that he was my first love.. we had some special memories..
Yes I just have one shikwa with him that he didnât bid a good bye to meâ¦â¦..
Itâs a bright and a beautiful morningâ¦â¦ first day of my job after being a CA now its CA ragini maheshwari
Without laksh somani and sanskar inani around meâ¦ but yet in my memories.
laksh is now with his another love I think her name is shanaya but whateve I donât careâ¦..? really?
Yes I do care yr I still love him I love him to the eternity
My love has always increased for him there is not a single day in these 6 years when I did not cried for himâ¦â¦ as he is my happy memory because he never gave me pain as sanskar didâ¦.. I always remember him when I a find myself alone n lonelyâ¦â¦ but I donât want laksh in my life because I know he would not love me and that will break my heart more
Though we donât have much memories but jitni bhi hai muje encourage karne ke liye kafi haiâ¦..
Now again I started thinking about himâ¦â¦ ah
Dooriyaan phir bhi kam naa hui
Ek adhuri si hamari kahani rahi
Aasmaan ko zameen, ye zaroori nahi
Jaa mile.. jaa mile..[ thinking about how I fell in love with him but still could not tell himâ¦.. the love I am having for him could never be reciprocatedâ¦â¦]Ishq saccha wahi
Jisko milti nahi manzilein.. manzilein..[ thinking about my broken trust, lost love and the love which never faded in these yearsâ¦â¦.]Rang thhe, noor tha
Jab kareeb tu tha
Ek jannat sa tha, yeh jahaan
Waqt ki ret pe kuch mere naam sa
Likh ke chhod gaya tu kahaan [ thinking about our first hugâ¦.. though it was a friendly 1 but still it holds half of my heartâ¦.. thinking about how we use to chat and how I was happy within my small world that I made with him ]
Though I didnât expected too much from himâ¦.. but whatever it is if we love someone than automatically we want that person to reciprocate to the love which we had given to himâ¦â¦.
Hamari adhuri kahani..
Hamari adhuri kahani [I am smiling and crying bitterlyâ¦.. he has always been a sweet memory for me, a memory which made me what I am today]Beep beepâ¦.. my alarm clock grasp my attentionâ¦. omg
Oh I forgot I am getting late for my office ummmmmâ¦â¦. I started getting ready
[ authors note: there she is miss raginiâ¦â¦ with full attitude on faceâ¦. A bold look
Wearing a see green translucent cotton shirt on a grayish black brijish cum trouser with black moccasins that made her look bolder and a hot red lipstickâ¦.. with her hair tied in a bun made her look damn hot
She was selected in one of the top companies as their CA and CS among 20 CA}
I reached office in my carâ¦â¦
There I was allotted my cabin and I couldnât believe what I sawâ¦â¦
Guess what she sawâ¦â¦
Precap: the person whom ragini sawâ¦.. who can be the personâ¦â¦ why did he cameâ¦â¦ what he is doing thereâ¦â¦ he is sanskar or lakshâ¦.. a shocking revelationâ¦â¦. raginis bold avatar..
To know more read next partâ¦â¦ till then take care
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