Chapter 8: Dealing with the New feelings!!
I woke up to the sun shining down on me while I curled up on my bed. Groaning I rolled and crushed my head deep down in my pillow. I hadnâ€™t slept well and it was clear that day wasnâ€™t going to be nice. Luckily it was Saturday and I wasnâ€™t going to face Neil at least for two days.By then I might have figured out how to deal with this new feeling.
I pulled the blanket over my head again and tried to sleep but Thoughts of Neil haunting my mind not allowing me to go back to sleep. I finally hopped out of bed and walked to the bathroom. I pulled off my cloths and slipped into the shower.
The water was warm but felt good against my tense muscles. After putting my body wash on loofa I messaged to my muscles in hope of relaxing them. I leathered my hair applying some shampoo and rinsed it. I let the water ran across my body for little longer.
I pulled my towel and tucked around me. I started drying my hair and then I stared my reflection in mirror.
Who Iâ€™m I kidding? Neil wouldnâ€™t want someone like me? Iâ€™m not tall, elegant, gracefulâ€¦.Iâ€™m just plainâ€¦.ordinaryâ€¦he even said I wasnâ€™t his type.
Sighing, I stepped out of bathroom. I was pulling the door shut when I heard gasp from behind me.i turned to see Neil sitting on my bed.
â€œNeilâ€¦what the hell are you doing in my room at this early morning? â€œ
â€œgood morning Sammyâ€� he said in sarcasm
â€œGet outâ€� I screamed
â€œChill out Sammy..itâ€™s not like I havenâ€™t seen you in towel beforeâ€�
You havenâ€™t seen me like this since I realized that I like you more than friend.
â€œNeilâ€¦Please Give me few minutesâ€¦â€� I tried to sound like Iâ€™m annoyed with his presence that he can give me few minutes.
He looked at me for a moment, and left, pulling the door close behind him. I quickly dressed up in my pajama shots and tank top.
â€œYou can come in Neilâ€¦I know you are standing outside the doorâ€¦.â€�
He pushed the door opened and look at me that it was safe to come in. I sat on chair while he went and sprawled on my bed. The guy that I like is on my bed.stop it, Sam. Though you having feeling for him..he is still Neilâ€¦.
â€œwhat are you doing here on Saturday?â€�
â€œCanâ€™t I come over to see my friend? â€œ he asked
â€œYeah..but I am not used to see you on weekendâ€¦so what the reason behind gracing me with your presence on Saturday? â€œ
His eyes studying mine. I was trying to hide my feelings my sounding casual. I want to burry this feeling deep down and not acknowledge them at all.
â€œSam, what got in to you? Why are you acting weird?â€� his eyes and expression showed me that he was worried.
â€œIâ€™m good..just tired due to tournamentâ€¦â€� I was trying to sound normal but I guess he noticed the change in my tone.
He stood from bed and walked towards me.now I noticed his body while walking. It was almost like lion walking in to kill his pray. He touched my forehead by back of his palm and stayed like that for a moment. His touchâ€¦.it was so electric and powerful. I surprised that I hadnâ€™t noticed stuff like this before.
â€œyou donâ€™t feel hot..but you looked exhausted â€œ I didnâ€™t have time to think before he scoped me in his arm from my chair and put me on bed and covers pulled around me.
â€œYou know I can walkâ€¦.â€� I said sarcastically
â€œ what kind of friend would I be if I didnâ€™t take care of my friend, Sammy? â€˜ he said dramatically
Friendâ€¦always a friend..never the girlfriendâ€¦I sighed and rolled my eyes.
Then I felt his hand wrapped around my waist and his body next to mine.. I tensed up some.
â€œIdiot, what are you doing? â€œ I asked while my heart beating at up fast and it like soon it will come out from my chest.
â€œI want you to sleep peacefully..dont be stressedâ€¦Iâ€™m right here..i wants to spend whole day with youâ€¦I missed you while you out of town for tournamentâ€¦.â€�
â€œMe tooâ€¦â€� I mumbled
How can I sleep peaceful when he was so close to me. I want to tell him right this moment what he meant to meâ€¦that I love himâ€¦in few minutes I heard him snoredâ€¦I felt relax a bitâ€¦I turned to see his sleeping face.Neil looked the same as I saw him first time those years ago. As I looked my eyes fell on his lips. I wondered how it felt kissing those s*xy lips.
I couldnâ€™t help but to smile at my childish thought. I closed my eyes tight and let myself sleep.
When I woke up , I was confused cause I wasnâ€™t on pillow but on someone. I forced my eyes to open and saw him..itâ€™s not dream..he was really here. I got up from bed with jerk. His eyes then opened slowly and looked at me.
â€œSorry I didnâ€™t mean to wake you upâ€¦.â€� I wished that he would have slept for some more time that I can have that freedom to observe him .
â€œItâ€™s okay..you look better nowâ€¦..â€� he said smilingly charminglyâ€œ what do you want to do today?â€�
â€œ no clueâ€¦.â€� I shrugged a little.he got up from bed and stretched his upper body little revealing his well-toned absâ€¦.Goshâ€¦..Kriti was right..he is muscularâ€¦.
I took my eyes off from him but again turned my gaze to look at him when he was busy searching something on his phone.as I was actually examining him , I could see why girl run head over heels for him.
He then looked up to meet my eyes..Iâ€™m frozenâ€¦.
â€œIâ€™m waiting..Sammyâ€¦.i guess we are not spending whole day hereâ€¦..â€�
I was blanked because of this very man seating in front of me and he wanted me to thinkâ€¦.Unbelivableâ€¦I coulnâ€™t think anymore as he was so close to me..he was always like this close to meâ€¦but now my feelings changed for him but he still think of me as a friend..Oh Godâ€¦How difficult situation is thisâ€¦I donâ€™t want to this happen but my subconscious mine always wanted this I think.
â€œI guess I would like to go book storeâ€¦I have read all books here already ten timesâ€¦.â€�â€¦yeah bookstore..only place would bring my mind backâ€¦and yess he may be would deny to come along with me..as Radz and Nanduâ€™s horror stories about my book shopping would have scared himâ€¦though he had been with me to book store many times.
â€œSure..Your wish, command for me..whatever you want to doâ€¦Iâ€™m with youâ€¦.â€�he stood and started to walked towards the door..Damnâ€¦My plan got flopped to avoid himâ€¦..
â€œOkay I will come in minutesâ€¦when you come mom and dad werenâ€™t home?â€�
â€œNope..Aunty toldâ€¦..they went for some workâ€¦and would back by eveningâ€¦.â€�
He closed door behind him..I crashed on bed and yelled in irritation..Oh God I have to act Normal around himâ€¦I couldnâ€™t let him discover my feelings for him..that i wanted him and no other guy would take his place.. stupid emotions..why did they have to change my perfect friendship with him?
I quickly slipped into my favorites pair of jeans and casual top and came down to the stairs, found Neil sitting on couch shuffling some general magzines.when he heard me descending stairs , he turned to look me. I was mesmerized by his eyes.they truly shimmered.he has some beautiful pair of eyes. I shook my head and broke my thoughts.
â€œyou ready? Neilâ€� I tried to act casual
â€œYup..do you want to eat something before? â€œ
â€œNopeâ€� I said and grabbed the keys from drawer and as we got out, I closed the door and unlocked it.
Entire time while driving we enjoyed singing along the radio and I got disappointed when we arrived to bookstore. I always like to listen him singing.
As soon as I entered into store I inhaled deep the smell of new book. He laughed at me and I gave him glare.He thought my love for book is insane since he wasnâ€™t much a reader.
â€œI donâ€™t laugh on your love for cars..for god sake Neilâ€¦.â€�he smiled and pulled me inside the shop.
He didnâ€™t release my hand walking to the various aisles. When I reached the fiction section he let go my hand and let me engrossed myself in my book world. I started reading few pages to ensure that I would enjoy reading or not and then handed book to Neil.
Finally. I need help to find some books on mythology. I started to look for some assistant. Finally found someone who worked there. He was guy in his early 20s with brownish hair and angelic smile. He was attractive but not as much as Neil.
â€œExcuse me, I need to find some books on mythology? â€œ
I gave him information and noticed the Neil protective stance on me. The assistant laid me to the mentioned section and handed me few books.
â€œIs there anything else I can do for you? â€œ he asked
â€œNoâ€¦thatâ€™s all I need..thank youâ€¦..â€�
â€œIf in case you need any help, My name Rocky. Donâ€™t hesitate to ask me personallyâ€¦.â€�he smiled and left us standing thereâ€¦
I turned to see Neil giving odd glares to that guy.
â€œwhatâ€™s wrong with you?â€� I asked to divert his gaze.but still his eyes were burning..whatâ€™s that..Jealousy? No..it couldnâ€™t beâ€¦.
â€œThat guy was exclusively flirting with youâ€¦Samâ€� he sneered
â€œWhat? No wayâ€¦Itâ€™s your illusion..he was being nice with me..simpleâ€¦.â€�
â€œIâ€™m surprised that he didnâ€™t grab your hand and take you with himâ€¦I bet if I wasnâ€™t with you he would have had your no.â€�
â€œAre you jealous, Neil? â€œ I know he wasnâ€™t..but I have to ask
â€œNo..but I donâ€™t like guys looking at you like piece meatâ€¦â€�his eyes where enough to tell me he was furiousâ€¦.like really furiousâ€¦
I grabbed his hand and laid him towards the cash counter. I hope that Rocky wouldnâ€™t be there else Neil would punch him. Thanks to God , a lady was there at the counter. I placed my books and about to pay but Neilâ€™s had his card out already and paid the bill before I could utter a word. He took the bag and led me out of the store.
â€œYou know Iâ€™m going to kill you? Why you paid my bill? â€œ I asked him when we reached out near his car. He looked at me as if he didnâ€™t done anything wrong
I think you need to eat something Sammy..Let me take you for lunchâ€¦â€� he said out of the blue to make my mood right and appear cute infront of meâ€¦
But I was surprised cause it was unexpected.he didnâ€™t take people out to eat.
â€œwhatâ€™s brought that?â€� I asked in curiosity
â€œSam, Iâ€™m hungry and obiously you are hungry too..i heard your stomach grumble like lion..i afraid if I donâ€™t make you eat for somemore time..you will eat meâ€¦.â€�his eyes shimmeredâ€¦I wanted to become mad at him. But there was something in his eyes restrict me to mad at him..instead I laugh.
We slipped into the car and in no time halted at good Italian restaurant in the town. As we got in and grabbed one of the corner table, a waitress came to us. She was giving signaling look to Neil. I ignored and concentrated on menu card.
Then I felt his hand on my hand brushing.
â€œ hey, why so dullâ€¦? â€œ looking into my eyes he asked. I realized he must have sense my lowly mood. I forced a smile.
â€œNothing..a lots of thing going in my mindâ€¦â€� I lied
â€œnothing particular..â€� I wanted to avoid this convo. When he was the reason of all the thoughts.
â€œI know you are lying..talk to meâ€¦â€� his voice sounded strange so I looked at his face. He was worried
â€œ Neil. I know we are best frinds..but some things I canâ€™t share to you..some are girlâ€™s thing..you know..so pleaseâ€¦â€�
â€œAlright..Sammy but mark one thing..iâ€™m right here..no matter what , okay? â€œ
I knew he was actually worried for me.. but I have to keep this thought deep inside me.
Finally food arrived, we continued to talk on anything and everything.i just really didnâ€™t notice the taste of food.it was just food for me. My attention was on him. I was rationalizing my feeling that how I had fallen for the person that I shouldnâ€™t love..i just have complicated the things..thatâ€™s why I refused to the people when they suggested me this thing for Neil.Now I just wanted nothing more than to be his girlfriend to with whom he will spend his weekends and would love me back.
I was badly terrified to lose him..i was thinking how I will deal with rejection if I told him about my feelings. I was silent all the time when we drive back to home. Finally I came to the conclusion that I couldnâ€™t my feelings secret forever. And eventually I have to tell him this. That I want him only him on this very own planet more than oxygen.
Finally he pulled car in front of my house, I was engrossed in my thought that I didnâ€™t realized when we reached.
I turned to look at me. He didnâ€™t bother me while driving. He let me be me with my thoughts.
â€œI think we should do this stuff of outing much often..i didnâ€™t realized until today that I have missed you so muchâ€¦you are always busy with college stuff and badminton practiceâ€¦we need to hang out like thisâ€¦â€�
He smiled and pulled me into hug. I was at peace. I wanted to stay in his embrace forever.
We finally got out of the car..
â€œWell I need to get back home..Radz had planned some family thing..â€�
I groaned because I know if radz was involved whatâ€™s that thing are.
â€œ Then..Good luck to youâ€¦..Good night..idiotâ€¦â€�
He pulled his car out on road. I greeted mom and dad who were enjoying some reality show on Tv. I went to my room and changed into Paijam shots and tank top and crumbled on my bed. I grabbed one of the pillow and dip my head into itâ€¦I smelt his cologne and I inhale it as much as I could.
Oh God!! I need to clear my head.but hellâ€¦my head was keep displaying his face while talking, joking on me around.
Sighing, I stood up and went to the window and looked at the clear sky shimmering with stars.it was then I saw it. Shooting star.
I made wish in that moment.
Please Let Neil feels the same for me..let him know how truly I love himâ€¦.
I sat down there staring beautiful shimmering dark blanket over me. As I feel tired I led on my bed. I have to tell him what going inside me. I hoped he wouldnâ€™t change after hearing what I had to tell him.
How was it guys?? I know its kinda odd to let them sleep together.but it was a cute idea to let them stay together for a while.
Next will be confessionâ€¦and Neilâ€™s reactionâ€¦.God Iâ€™m worriedâ€¦.LoLâ€¦Just actingâ€¦.hehe
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